My heart is Pounding!! and no it's not a cake.

Just when I’m calmly googling recipes in order to use my oh so cherished Vanilla Beans My e-mail pops up with a message saying I receive a ‘reply’ from Mr. Cookie. And guess what My heart starts pounding in my chest! And I think what the hell did I say something wrong?

I honestly thought that my reply was pretty much a closed ended one and then I get another message and  I honestly have no clue what to say to it.

Mr Cookie said ‘ You know it’s easier to make cakes when I’m not on vacation because I spend a lot of time not home.’

How the hell am I suppose to interpret that?

I should be good at interpreting things. For heavens sakes I’m taking a Licenciatura which consists of literature, and that consists in interpretation.

Sometimes two people can speak the same language and know the cultural context of that language, and it can be their mother tongue but still not actually know what the other one is saying.

This happened often between the Crazy Duke of Blue and Nonna blue his mother. If it can happen in families it can happen with people who are not related in any way what so ever!
Sadly I share the some of the genetic make up of the two just mentioned So I princess Cinder-in-hella am screwed in terms of interpretation at times.

This would be one of those times.

But in the words of me when I am calm ‘You are just confused.’
Although I did have a friend say that about the Crazy Duke of blue once.

and yes Brimsty I'm over exagerating but that's just what I do.

okay!

So I took my own advice for once.
Well acctually my aunt's but I posted it here and it suddenly showed up on my screen so I did it.

My hear was beating fast like when you've stollen something and you know the police is gonna find you.

Well I got a reply. Needless to say it still remains small talk (which is rather calming for me. I mean people small talk at parties where they don't know people so it's still safe though uncharted territory.)

He said his vacation was good and that cookies still remain a dream.
And asked me how mine were.

I haven't replied yet.
And maybe I won't.
It is at times like these that I miss my Rita Snow White, as well as the rest of the princesses. I fear the few times I've spoken with Aurora I've overdone it. God help her with a crazy friend like me.

Everything we do involves taking a risk, taking a chance.

My only fear is that taking these chances keep me from doing what I want to do well, which is sing.
But yet again maybe I am undervaluing my own ability to focus.

Freaking out and random

‘‘I did something I’m not proud of.

In fact I feel nervous as hell! (Pardon my language)

I sent him a message asking how summer vacation was and if the cookies worked out.

Normal people would ask me ‘What the hell are you freaking out about? (P.S. He’s not quit the ‘club’.)
Well I dreamt he was a ghost haunting me. How do I know he looked like a ghost well he’d be far away and smiling (this part I’m not sure, but he wasn’t mad) I would look a second time and he’d be in the same place but then I would look again and he would be gone. There then not there.

I’m hoping this dream was induced by the 5mg of Aerius meds I’m taking for my allergies.

Now I find myself avoiding my e-mail in order to not see if I have a reply.

What is wrong with me! I’m a conundrum a babbling paradox of sorts.

Yet again what I want is friends. Not that I don’t have friends I just don’t have any male friends.

‘The Universe is conspiring in our favour’ well the book also says ‘You must always know what it is that you want’. At times I may not always be sure of what I do want but I know what I don’t want.

Maybe I’m just ignoring a blessing since ‘Every blessing ignored becomes a curse’. Although in respect to this quote I was asked ‘Well then how do we know whether it is a blessing?’  To that I say learn to read the omens. We know how we just never took the time to look closely. Well according to Santiago, the shepherd boy, in the Alchemist.

Sometimes we have to do things for ourselves.

I’m so tiered of all the romance novels and shows about love and marriage. Oh and all the songs. It feels like we’re being brainwashed into thinking that if we are single we have no worth. People should be worth something on their own.

Love and romance are beautiful ideas and maybe in some cases they do exist but there is no need to be stuffing people’s heads with a set notion of what it is, and how it works. It’s good to have guidelines but come on.

I hate it when people say oh well love between a couple is different. Well sorry but love is love or people would have another word for it. You can love a friend, and you can love your sister. The means of expression is not the same but there is one thing that is the same. You want that other person to be the best version of themselves, and not for your sake but for theirs. Oh and it’s a two way street.

Anyways I'm babbling.’’ (Princess in my Head)

Paz

Sim. Acho mesmo que voltou a paz mesmo que só seja temporariamente.
Já consigo ver os horários das minhas cadeiras e consigo imprimir o meu horário. E tudo porque mudei para o Google Chrome.
Passo os dias com alivio das alergias, bastante alivio mas não por completo, e já é bom.

a vida anda as voltas

p.s. he usually goes on facebook around one o'clock. Just saying.

''The Universe is conspring in our favour, even though we may not understand how.''  Paulo Coelho

Maybe this is true. In fact I feel it is more true as days go by.
The things I have acctually wanted have come true. Some I just wasn't specific as to when I wanted them to happen. But maybe this can be considered luck.

''The secret of life is to fall seven times and get up eight times.''

Fear is one of the obsticles to living life.
And like my aunt said 'you have to take risks walking across the street is a risk'

I'm working on my fear, and realizing I'm scared of lots of things but getting over the fear is a relief especially with nasal spray to aleviate the effects of alergies.

Pontaria

É o segundo ano que me inscrevo na faculdade atraves da net e a segunda vez que ando horas a fim a tentar entrar.
Mas NADA!
A sério. Isto tira me do sério. Agora estou a espera de ter uma resposta em relação ao problema de não conseguir entrar para a página. Tenho uma saudade enorme dos tempos em que as coisas eram feitas à mão. Se isto não de pegar em mim, senhora dona sonolenta devido aos medicamentos contra esta porcaria de alergia que tem uma pontaria do c********, e fazer em papel.
É sempre a pior altura do ano, excepto epoca de testes.

A verdade é esta não há princepe encantado, e nenhum dos 'prince charmant' têm cavalos e muito menos brancos e não têm interesse em salvar princessas.
As mulheres de hoje em dia têm é de se salvar destes 'princes Charmantes' porque são vagabundos mentirosos.

Nas férias recebi um 'piece of advice' da minha prima.
Não te cases a não ser que ele seja podre de rico e com pouca saúde.

No segundário eu tinha um professor de Educação fisica que dizia:
 estes? vocês estão mesmo a ver ?
(como quem diz estes rapazes vocés têm pouca sorte estes não têm jeito)

Houve um casal com 90 anos que se casou finalmente depois de uma vida em conjunto.
Quando perguntaram porqué casar ao fim de tantos anos responderam:
Porque assim sabémos que será mesmo para o resto da vida.

O resto da vida, it's a preety longtime.

Agora' now to my feet.'



 

Random

I got an e-mail which I know is from facebook but a name shows up and obviously two things cross my mind oh sh*** my wish came true and second what the hell is this doing in my inbox.
Clearly false alarme.

Now back to me after a few days at the beach I look awesome!!!
I got my terereh
I got my tan
and I got a new style .

I also discovered that most of the clothes I make are beach wear only.

 

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